Tuesday, July 4, 2006

After 48 years…

... I have finally uploaded a new layout. This is just simple since I felt like a newbie again in photoshop-ing and since our PC's got wrecked months ago, all my files are gone.. and that includes my brushes and patterns and, and... and... everything! Boohoo! >_TEEN-one! Oh my. Oh my. Am I THAT old? Nah. I still feel like a TEEN, you know.

Tomorrow will be my parents' silver wedding anniversary. I have this mixed emotions. First is that I am happy to have parents like them. No offense meant to other people but I think I am just lucky that I still have parents who loves and supports each other as well their 3 lovely kids. Yes, like any other wed couples, they also have all sorts of misunderstandings but they try to solve and handle it because I think they don't want their relationship to be affected and all. It's not just their relationship would be affected but also us. When I see them argue about some petty things, I feel upset even if I know that they would kiss and make up in the end. I am just scared that it would get worse. Something like that.

I also feel sad about their 25th anniversary. It's because I don't have something to give like what I have promised them. (But I am sure, they would understand.) Yeah. I am bankrupt. I got no money since I stopped reviewing. I have nothing, really. Argh. You see, nothings going the way I planned. I thought that by this time, I'll be working and all. But because of this issue and controversy about our board exam, every one's suffering. Our agony is always prolonged. And I am just sick of it. I can't even apply for a part-time job because our diplomas aren't released yet. Things are really turning in the wrong way. What a life. But I guess, this is just the start of everything. I mean, I know someday I'll be able to work in my dream hospital. I know that God has good plans for me... it may not be the ones that I desire... but I believe that He has something for me that He thinks, I deserve. Amen to that.

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