D Day.

This is a different day for me. I woke up early to get ready and prepare for my agenda today. I looked at my closet and stared at it for a while. I got really jittery and was very indecisive on what to wear. I wanted to look presentable. I wanted to prove something.

When I have finally decided on what to wear, I bid goodbye to my mom and told her to wish me luck. She told me to take care and just to stand out.

After an hour, I arrived on that particular place where I have to be at that very moment. People were looking at me. They seemed like they can detect that I am having tachycardia and tachypnea with their very own eyes.

I wasn't wearing a black shirt. I have my gold watch on my wrist instead of a white wrist band. I wasn't shouting for justice. I wasn't holding a cardboard with "No Retake!" on it. In other words, I wasn't there in the rally. I didn't go in Liwasang Bonifacio this morning. Where was I?

With a semi-corporate attire, I finally decided to enter the hospital and looked for my previous clinical instructor to pass the requirements I've been holding for more than an hour. I can't believe I was there in the hospital, not because I was sick but because I am now applying for a job.

We went to this certain department and that's the new place where applicants are being entertained. When I came in in the office, I saw this two girls who are being reprimanded by this respectable woman and I heard the woman said, "I'm sorry. We can not hire you because blah blah blah.." I wasn't able to hear the whole story because I got nervous upon hearing those words. I think those two girls made something very mendacious. I tried to calm myself. I just kept telling myself "Sira ka ba?! Bakit ka kinakabahan?! Honest ka kaya.. Hello?! Sapatusin kaya kita dyan...?!" When they have finally finished talking, I was then called and asked to fill up a form. I was shocked because I saw an essay part on the second page. I read the questions, then I just told myself "Stand out Xyla! Kaya mo 'yan! Idaan mo sa ganda!" Wahaha. I almost burst into laughter. Kapal talaga ng mukha nitong babaeng 'to. Thank God I was able to control it... or else, I might have disturbed the vice president of whatever talking with some of the employees.

One of the questions there was "Give us at least 3 qualities that you have why we will hire you?" I answered it with this: I am very determined in giving quality health care to patients may he/she be an indigent or not. I always think for my patient's progress. I am also eager to learn new things. I know that I wasn't really exposed to all of the different nursing procedures and I am very willing to try new skills. I strongly believe that constructive criticisms will improve me as a person and as a professional. Lastly, I am very hardworking. I always set goals and I make sure that I achieve them.

Do you think I'll pass the screening with that answer? I am confident with what I have written but I admit that doubts creep in my mind from time to time. But... to hell with those doubts! Get away from me!

The secretary told me that I have to wait for their call and they would schedule me for a psychological examination. Hala. Matutuklasan na yata nila ang kabaliwan ko. LOL.

I was really starving when I left the hospital. So I went to look for the nearest fast food chain to satisfy my stomach. While eating alone, I just told myself, "I can't believe you've done this alone. Way to go, Xyla!"

Now I am back here infront of this PC, waiting for their call and oh, waiting for my batchmates' updates on what happened on the rally. I am also proud of them for fighting for justice. "Punish the criminals and give justice to the victims!" Aja Batch 2006!