I don’t want a blog leave!!

Errr.. sorry for that tantrum-like entry title. I'll tell you the reason why later...

I missed blogging. I've been away for like a week and I had a lot of stories in my mind to share but because of Milenyo, it all faded away. My internet connection just got back as well as our power supply that's why I wasn't able to type the things I wanted to type. It seemed like my ideas flew with Milenyo. Grrr..

Very unusual for me but a while ago, I asked for my mom's permission to use the computer. Haha. My parents are sort of "banning" me or something in my computer addiction because of the recently announced grrr-ood news. Our beloved president ordered for a retake of the recent Philippine Nursing Licensure Exam. It hurts. Really. I even caught myself staring blankly on the wall while tears were continuously falling from my eyes. I was reminiscing all my sacrifices during my college years. At first, I couldn't accept the decision of the president. I mean, how could she reason out that she wants the credibility of the Filipino nurses to be regained when most of the Filipinos are dubious with the election thing? She wants the credibility? Then let's start it with the president! Errr.. oh well. I am getting subjective again. But for the past days, I've already reflected about it and I gave up on fighting for my right not to go on a retake. "Para akong rape victim na nagpakulong at umako ng kasalanan ng nangrape sakin...." That's what I told some of my friends when I told them about my decision on going back to serious reviewing. It's not that I can't defend myself anymore.. it's just that I want this issue to be stopped. This issue haunts me for like 3 months now and I can't take it anymore. I know God has good plans for me and I trust Him that much that's why I am now accepting this retake even if until now, it still hurts. Wish me luck. I feel that this second round of board exam would be much harder. I hope I can pass it again since I am just on a self review. And oh, if ever I won't make it.... please don't think that I cheated last June. I swear, I honestly took it and passed it with a clean conscience. So please, don't be so judgmental.

Oh yes, I am not going on a blog leave. I still wanted to update this from time to time.... maybe when all those ideas that Milenyo stole from me will come back.