As soon as the FX driver dropped me off at McDonald's P.Campa branch, I hurriedly went up the foot bridge to be able to pay my tuition fee before lunch break. At the foot bridge, I saw some people clamoring for help. I thought a crime happened in the middle of a hot humid day. Without a doubt, I went straight to the "scene" and there... I saw a woman in labor...
She was assisted by 3 people while others asked for help. Blood and amniotic fluid gushed from her private part. Her pair of shorts were actually wet from blood. Some people just watched the commotion while others didn't care at all. I knew I have to do something. But... it's been years since I assisted in delivery. I was scared! I was afraid of doing harm! I was worried about my license getting revoked. I don't even have scissors nor alcohol with me to sterilize my hands since I don't bring gloves in ordinary days. I wanted to help. I watched the people if they are doing something to help. And so...
I immediately went down stairs to look for help. I looked for policemen because I always see policemen below that foot bridge. Then I saw a security guard and asked if there were any policemen around. "Kuya! May mga pulis ba dito? Kelangan ko ng tulong. May manganganak po sa overpass at kailangan po siyang dalhin kaagad sa hospital!" The security guard ignored me and just said, "tanungin mo na lang yung mga tambay dyan!" God, he doesn't even care! I went to the nearest barangay hall but no one is around too! I tried my best to help. But... it didn't work. :( The last thing I know is that the woman was taken to the nearest hospital.
I entered the premises of FEU with guilt and worry. I was actually shaking as I entered the gate because of panic. I know I could have done something. I know I can't handle delivery just like that, like on the spot. I am not expert in labor and delivery. I actually hated my Maternal and Child Nursing subject. And now, I feel guilty for not doing anything. :( I feel that I am not good enough. Like what if I am in an emergency situation again?
I always thought that I am a competitive nurse. But this afternoon, I felt like I am a dumb nurse. :(
I hope the baby and his/her mom are okay. Please help me pray for them.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Think about it like this: at this point you know what you're capable of and you're only trying to make sure that the woman and her baby will be ok by not performing something you're not that confident at. We all have those moments. :) And you did do something, you tried to look for help. :)
ReplyDeleteIt's not true that you didn't do anything. As a matter of fact, you did your best when you're looking for help. You're just being a responsible nurse for not assisting directly... you don't have the right tools/items diba?
ReplyDeleteI'll pray na they're just fine. This sitch just let you realize something, right? Now it's your turn to learn from it. :) I've always believed that you'll be a great nurse someday.
minsan hindi natin hawak ng ating mga kamay ang mga pangyayari.
ReplyDeleteHope they're doing okay. Don't feel guilty. You did the right thing na tumawag ng tulong. Sometimes, yun lang ang kailangan na tulong. So relax.
ReplyDelete